Seeking For Answers......

   For days I was replaying August 22nd all over again. It was like video with only loops, it would just not stop. Days went on and I still did not talk to anybody what had just happened. That is when I realized I was alone. I had no one, because I knew once I did, someone who was close to me would condemned me hell and start throwing bible versus at me.

   So I started my journey seeking answers. I wanted to know why this happened to me and am I going to Hell for hearing a spirit, let I remind you my granny's spirit.  So I turned to the Bible first and started reading Genesis. I understood most of it and some parts I was able to relate to. As I am reading Genesis I feel like I am being spoken to by God himself. He is saying, "hello I was there with you." When I read about Racael and how she prayed for a baby because she couldn't have one and then God gave her a child. This same occurrence happened to me.

   When we were trying for our second child my husband had been deployed to Okinawa, Japan for a year, then we returned back to the USA. 4 months later he was deployed to Iraq for a few months. Once he was home in September 2008 we started trying for our last child. Time was growing sparse, because I am not allowed to have children past my 27th birthday. So on March 23rd we went to our local Cathloic church. I prayed saying to God, "Please bless us with a baby and if you don't that is OK. I am OK with having one child." When we finished church we went home and I felt different. I knew then I was with child. My prayers had been answered.

   This was just a side note in reference to what I read in Genesis. So, lets get back to the story shall we.

   After reading half of Genesis I went to a family friend who is a pastor and asked, " Is God going to condemn me to hell". Instead of a yes or no answer I was told to read

 1 John 4 

4 Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world. 2 By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, 3 and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you heard was coming and now is in the world already. 4 Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 5 They are from the world; therefore they speak from the world, and the world listens to them. 6 We are from God. Whoever knows God listens to us; whoever is not from God does not listen to us. By this we know the Spirit of truth and the spirit of error.

   This was not the answer I was looking for. I wanted to know, since a spirit came and seek me out first would I be condemned that is all I ever wanted to know. So I re-read the passage and still it wasn't the answer to my question. All I wanted was a "Yes" or a "No". That is it. 

Sometimes in life you just want a yes or no answer. Some people either give it to you or they don't. So I went back to the bible seeking answers and I found this passage that scared me to death.

Deuteronomy 18:9-11

9 “When you enter the land which the LORD your God gives you, you shall not learn to imitate the detestable things of those nations. 10 There shall not be found among you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire, one who uses divination, one who practices witchcraft, or one who interprets omens, or a sorcerer, 11 or one who casts a spell, or a medium, or a spiritualist, or one who calls up the dead."

   After reading it I said to myself,  well then I guess I know where I am going, but it still did not answer the question: " When a spirit seeks someone out, to give them a message, will you be condemned to something that you did not ask for? I have yet to hear one person answer this question for me. Months later I found my answer and you will be amazed by whom. 

  GOD "sometimes things aren't meant to be understood they just are. I think in this case there is no "right" or "wrong" answer. It just is.Those that seek answers will get those answers answers through God. I made like the way you were suppose to live it. I made life a freedom of choice. There is no right or wrong way. What happened to Casey happened for specific reasons. You all are my children and each one of you has a purpose. With some it takes longer for them to find there true self and true calling. I gave Casey many gifts. She will explain more in her next post, but what she writes is all truth and it is not from the devil. I have a grand purpose for Casey, and you will see through this testimonial of what her true purpose is. This world is going on the path of God and making things up as they go, which is find but remember this that I am your TRUE father. GOD is your true father. All of my children you are of me. You each have a piece of me. I gave you this so that I can live through you. Casey is remembering who she is. As she continues to write listen and do not judge. Keep an open mind and let love and joy shine through. She has a gift listen. I will say this to all of my children you will come back to me one day and the soul that you are. Your spot is here in the kingdom of heaven the light of life. Remember that. God wrote this post not Casey. I want to show you that I am still here. Some of you think that I am not, but I am . To continue on another day.....